theShawnDavis

some jack sparrow quote like "crazy people dont know they are crazy, i know that i am crazy, er-go, i am not."  i butchered it but you get the gist.  i feel like the ego, or even the quest for control of it is like a dog chasing its tail.  i pride my self on being humble, but thats an oxymoron in itself.  being proud of being humble.  well then i musn't be very much of either then.  i want admiration, and praise, but in the times its given, i blush and refuse it, i chase it away and dont believe that it is sincere or valid or accurate.  so many things i chase, i end up chasing away.  is the concept of constant improvement even attainable?  i think that to accept that even in theory it might be possible, we have to look in from a greatly increased perspective.  our improvement as we merge nearer and nearer to with technological intergration may just be the destruction of life as we know it, but on a planetary scale, it may be a vast improvement.  not more pollution, war, genocide.  and extrapolate further.  say non sentient beings devour the earth as we know it, heating it to a crust and throwing the eco system out of homeostasis.  what further universal, galactic or cosmic improvements might that cause?  

the destruction, or less dramatically, lack of ovious improvement may be the actuall improvement the universe needs.  

in the mean time, i'd like to get better gas mileage.