theres a dog licking my toes right now. dont worry its not super gross i got out of the shower and have clean feet, she likes to help me dry off or something. i dont know if my dog loves me, but she sure makes me feel like she does. not the toe licking, really that is kinda gross but for whatever reason she wants to do it so i let her. is she trying to tell me that she loves me or is submissive or respectful? what about her smiles? there is definetly a smile on her face when i get home and wrestle with her. at least, it looks like what we humans have all decided to call a smile.
does my dog do anything for a reason? am i projecting human traits onto an animal that has no clue why it does what it does? for sure i am, but maybe dogs do feel like i feel. if they dont, does it matter? if my dog, Farley, has no clue what shes doing or why, but it make me feel loved, is that enough? the feeling i get is real, she definetly makes me happy, excited, loved, cared for, worried about, sad. all of my emotions are real to me. they make me alive. wondering as a i type this im getting kind of sad, what if i dont bring her as much joy as she brings me? what if its all a cosmic shell game? would her theoretical lack of ability to feel or compulsion to act have any impact on the way it effects me? i just realized im using a ton of question marks in this entry.
i hope my dog feels like i do. i'd hate for her to be sad, lonely, or in want of anything, but if she could really feel and understand how much i absolutley love her i think it would be ok. that sounds selfish. i should not want her to have to feel bad things just so she could feel my love, my adoration, how egotistical am i? maybe i should wish that she is emotionless, what minute joy could i possibly give her that would not be far outwieghed by the disapointments.
i am lucky, for she has never once let me down, left me alone, scolded me, or acted as if i was burdensome. i get the best from her, all the time, no matter what.
does my dog do anything for a reason? am i projecting human traits onto an animal that has no clue why it does what it does? for sure i am, but maybe dogs do feel like i feel. if they dont, does it matter? if my dog, Farley, has no clue what shes doing or why, but it make me feel loved, is that enough? the feeling i get is real, she definetly makes me happy, excited, loved, cared for, worried about, sad. all of my emotions are real to me. they make me alive. wondering as a i type this im getting kind of sad, what if i dont bring her as much joy as she brings me? what if its all a cosmic shell game? would her theoretical lack of ability to feel or compulsion to act have any impact on the way it effects me? i just realized im using a ton of question marks in this entry.
i hope my dog feels like i do. i'd hate for her to be sad, lonely, or in want of anything, but if she could really feel and understand how much i absolutley love her i think it would be ok. that sounds selfish. i should not want her to have to feel bad things just so she could feel my love, my adoration, how egotistical am i? maybe i should wish that she is emotionless, what minute joy could i possibly give her that would not be far outwieghed by the disapointments.
i am lucky, for she has never once let me down, left me alone, scolded me, or acted as if i was burdensome. i get the best from her, all the time, no matter what.
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