theShawnDavis

tired today, in a kinda confused sort of way, like not very on the ball, a little more slow mentally than usual.  its weird when people point things out super blunt that when its a thing that youd keep quiet about and just let slide.  like, am i more startled that you wasted the breath to tell me your stupid anecdote about why i should do this inconsequential task your way, or am i offended that by explaining something so simple, youre basically telling me im a moron?  

either way i dont get mad, i get sheepish and uncomfortable in my skin and give in anyway, doesnt seem worth the effort to argue or get bitchy over stupid things that get done whether you go from point a-b, or b-a.  

i dont think i should swear anymore.  nothing against swearing, but its become a lazy way for me to talk.  its filler and it makes me sound stupid.  same as if i said "um" before every other word.  so.  i think i should tell people.  social contract and all you know.  dont wanna be a weak bitch and not follow through.  i'll have to be careful who i tell, only tell other weak bitches in my life so they dont have the bals to call me out when i fail.  sounds foolproof.  one more then i'm done.  Fuck.  thats the one i use too much.  too versatile, so its not even tottaly my fault.  like, people say if you only have a hammer, then everything is a nail.  not true.  you can do alot of stuff other than pound nails with a hammer.  pry on things, tap things into to place, prop doors open, sculpt rocks, crush ice.... if the only tool you have happens to be a hammer, dont cry about everything being a nail  you should be so lucky.  hammers are the fuck of the tool world.  ok thats then last one.  peace in the middle east